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Hey, what’s up guys! How are you all? And if you’re asking about me… I’m okay, but not really. I’m stuck in someone’s memories thinking about them all the time. I want to talk to him so badly, But I was the one who made him promise that he wouldn’t text or call me… even though I knew how hard it would be.  It’s been 7 days since we stopped talking. I know him he never breaks his promises. Once he gives his word, he’ll keep it no matter how much it hurts him. I needed some time and space. But deep down, I also wanted to see if he would break that promise or not. It was really hard for him but he still agreed. But now… I’m waiting. I keep thinking what if he comes back and says, I don’t want a promise that keeps me away from you. I’ll break every rule for you… rules are for the world, not for you. He has so many problems in his life, but he never shares them with anyone. Inside, he’s carrying so much pain. And when he smiles… it’s the prettiest smile. His eyes are like a flower ...

 Hey, this is your Dhee.  So, how is your day going? If you're thinking about my days, they are a little hard .... sometimes okay, but these days feel more difficult. I don't  always know how to react whether I'm overthinking. I feel like I need someone who can stop my overthinking and understand why I react the way I do. But at the end of the day, you are alone. If you've read my past blog you already know what I'm going to talk about. I feel like I need him...but at the same time, I don't. I feel like I'm just an option in everyone's life. There are so many things I want to tell him, but we are not in a relationship, so how can I have right over him? I wish there was someone in my life who could understand me without words. I want him to be there in my ups and downs... but how do I tell him?  He's is also going through a hard time. He is fighting his own battles. But I also need a little of his time. How do I say this to that one person-that even w...