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 Hey, this is your Dhee.  So, how is your day going? If you're thinking about my days, they are a little hard .... sometimes okay, but these days feel more difficult. I don't  always know how to react whether I'm overthinking. I feel like I need someone who can stop my overthinking and understand why I react the way I do. But at the end of the day, you are alone. If you've read my past blog you already know what I'm going to talk about. I feel like I need him...but at the same time, I don't. I feel like I'm just an option in everyone's life. There are so many things I want to tell him, but we are not in a relationship, so how can I have right over him? I wish there was someone in my life who could understand me without words. I want him to be there in my ups and downs... but how do I tell him?  He's is also going through a hard time. He is fighting his own battles. But I also need a little of his time. How do I say this to that one person-that even w...

Hey… this is me again. Have you ever felt that moment when you try so hard not to go back to that phase of your life - the one where you felt chosen, but ended up hurt in a relationship? When you promise yourself you won’t fall for any guy again… but somehow, you still look for someone?  The surprising part is that I always search for someone who feels like a mirror of myself. But I never find that. I always end up meeting someone completely opposite to my personality. Somewhere, I once read that “opposites attract.” But I think I’m not ready to face someone who is opposite to me in a negative way. The guy I met now is also opposite… but in a different way - in a positive way. I don’t know whether we will become one in the future or remain two separate people. But he once told me something that shook me. He said that what I felt in the past that crazy, intense attachment - wasn’t love. It was attraction. Before him, no one had ever explained things to me so calmly and wisely. My fr...

Today I realized that the things we always hear from society aren't always true. But there are some truths that I actually felt today... I don't know, am I right or wrong? But actually girls are considered paraya dhan, or no matter how much we deny it, at some point, over time, we realize it and have to accept it. Even when family members are joking, you might not feel it that much-but when an incident actually happens with you, it hits differently. Suddenly, the things I kept in my own home started to change with the arrival of a new person. my comfort zone, my own belongings, started being altered without my permission. I couldn't do anything because I had to adjust. And if I said I didn't want things to be changed, my dad said, "tum toh chali jaoge apne ghar, ab changes ghar ke naye member ke according honge." In just a few days, I felt.... he was right. This house was never truly ours, the way we considered it. Maybe this is true for everyone, but no one w...